\u201cApril, forgive me for letting them blame you for a death that was never an accident\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
The paper trembled in my fingers. The entire room ran out of air. My mother was the first to move. She lunged toward me with a strength I hadn\u2019t seen since I was a child, when she used to pull my braids to keep me from entering the workshop.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cGive me that.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mr. Anselmo stepped in her way. \u201cNo, Mrs. Leonor.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
My mother looked at him as if he had just spat on the casket. \u201cYou aren\u2019t family.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cThat is precisely why Mr. Raul trusted me.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Matthew approached, his face turning red. \u201cApril, stop it. It\u2019s my father\u2019s funeral.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cHe was my father, too.\u201d \u201cWell, you didn\u2019t act like a daughter.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Something inside me snapped. For five years, I told myself that leaving had been cowardice. That perhaps I had abandoned Dad. That perhaps my mother was right when she said the house became sick the moment I left for Chicago.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
But in that box were the receipts. The transfers. The bank statements where my paycheck\u2014first as a receptionist, then as a logistics supervisor\u2014went every month toward Dad\u2019s medicine. The deposits for property taxes. The overdue electricity bills for the workshop. The payments for the loans Matthew took out in my name.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I hadn\u2019t left. I had been used from a distance.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I turned on the tape recorder. Dad coughed from the device. His voice sounded tired but clear.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cApril, if you\u2019re hearing this, forgive me. I didn\u2019t have the courage. Your mother told me to stay silent. Matthew asked for time. I thought it was better to lose you while you were angry than to put your brother in jail.\u201d<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n Matthew blurted out, \u201cTurn that crap off.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n No one obeyed him. Dad\u2019s voice continued:<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u201cThe night Julian died, you weren\u2019t at the workshop. You were at the pharmacy buying my blood pressure pills. Matthew moved the truck without checking the brakes. He knew the master cylinder was failing. Julian crawled underneath because Matthew promised to pay him extra if he got the unit ready for the customer. The truck fell. I saw it.\u201d<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n I felt the world spinning. Julian. My Julian. The boy who brought me elotes<\/em> when I worked late at the workshop. The one who waited for me outside my night school. The one who said that one day we would open an auto parts business in Gary, and I would handle the books because he was \u201ca disaster with numbers.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n Julian died crushed under a truck. And everyone said it was because I forgot to engage the safety on the jack. I believed it. I went around carrying that death as if I had caused it with my own hands.<\/p>\n\n\n\n My mother was looking at me, dry-eyed. That was the worst part. She didn\u2019t look surprised. She looked angry\u2014angry that she had been found out.<\/p>\n\n\n\n The recording continued: \u201cAfter the accident, Matthew forged your signature to take out loans and pay off Julian\u2019s family. Not to help, daughter. To silence them. Then he kept asking for more. Your mother found out. Brenda did too. I signed as a guarantor on some papers. I am guilty. But you are not.\u201d<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n The room exploded. Aunt Rose started saying it was the devil\u2019s invention. Brenda sat down abruptly, clutching her belly as if her baby were a legal shield. My mother walked up to the casket and rested her hand on the glass.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u201cRaul, even dead, you betrayed me.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n That sentence buried him for good. She didn\u2019t say, \u201cPoor April.\u201d She didn\u2019t say, \u201cWhat have we done?\u201d She said he betrayed her<\/em>.<\/p>\n\n\n\n I took off my black apron. I left it on the table, on top of the fake folder.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u201cI\u2019ve served enough.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n Matthew laughed nervously. \u201cAnd what are you going to do? Sue during the wake?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u201cIt\u2019s best for everyone,\u201d my mother said.<\/p>\n\n\n\n For everyone. Except for me. I opened the folder. My name was written in full: April Mendoza Reyes. My signature appeared at the bottom on two pages.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Forged. But perfect.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u201cI didn\u2019t sign this.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n Matthew shrugged. \u201cProve it.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n My chest burned. I looked at the casket. My father looked asleep, his hands crossed with the rosary between his fingers. The same man who taught me how to change tires. The same man who called me \u201cmy brave one\u201d when Mom wasn\u2019t listening. He couldn\u2019t have left me out.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Not like this.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Then, from the patio, there was a sharp thud. Everyone turned.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Mr. Anselmo, the workshop neighbor, walked in without asking. He wore a grease-stained shirt, red eyes, and carried an old toolbox. My mother turned pale.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u201cAnselmo, this is not the moment.\u201d \u201cThat\u2019s why I came,\u201d he replied. \u201cBecause Mr. Raul told me that if they held his wake with lies, I should open this in front of April.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n Matthew stiffened. \u201cThat box belongs to the workshop.\u201d \u201cNo,\u201d Anselmo said. \u201cThis box belongs to your father.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n He set it on the table. He took out a small, rusty key tied with a red ribbon. My mother took a step toward him.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u201cDon\u2019t open it.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n But Anselmo had already lifted the lid. Inside, there were receipts, old photos, a small tape recorder, and a yellow envelope with my name written in Dad\u2019s handwriting. My hands froze. I opened the envelope. 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